I am P.O.ed

Does every body have to make me feel so inferior???

Olivia kissed a boy - well, made out, for the first time, second, third, fourth, so on... And I'm all, "Kissing sucks, it's totally overrated." And she's all, "Oh,no, I looooove kissing it's so amazing you wouldn't know because you haven't really kissed!" Well, guess what? I have really kissed! I kissed Taylor Marsh and even though he didn't like it, I kissed him. It may have been for a play, but Leonardo DiCaprio and Kate Winslet are pretty good at kissing, too, ok? And even though Taylor is a terrible kisser, I KISSED HIM!!!!!!!

And then Shannon has to betray me by sending Patrick the entire conversation that I had with her about how angry I was at him. So here are some tidbits from my conversation with him.

gdayflavored24 [3:23 P.M.]: i am over u
Sealhugger72 [3:23 P.M.]: i am going to kill shannon mita in her sleep!
gdayflavored24 [3:24 P.M.]: AND the mutual breakup thing
gdayflavored24 [3:24 P.M.]: she sent me the entire convo
gdayflavored24 [3:24 P.M.]: i didnt tell u this
gdayflavored24 [3:24 P.M.]: reember the convo the nite b4 we broke up?
Sealhugger72 [3:24 P.M.]: not exactly - u mean the convo b4 i dumbped u!
gdayflavored24 [3:24 P.M.]: w/e
Sealhugger72 [3:24 P.M.]: *dumped
Sealhugger72 [3:24 P.M.]: patrick mckeen i dumped you
gdayflavored24 [3:25 P.M.]: yeah, well, the next day, when i came up to u and said "can we make this work?"
gdayflavored24 [3:25 P.M.]: i wuz going to dump u
gdayflavored24 [3:25 P.M.]: u beat me too it
Sealhugger72 [3:25 P.M.]: really? because i took the ssad little puppy dog look and the" can we make this work PLEASEEEE!!!!!!!! as a hint that u werent ready 2 let go
gdayflavored24 [3:26 P.M.]: i did not fucking do that!
Sealhugger72 [3:26 P.M.]: you fucking did

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Sealhugger72 [3:28 P.M.]: well i was the 1 who took the first step in ending the relationship when i wouldnt go 2 the dance as yur gf
Sealhugger72 [3:29 P.M.]: it was downhill 4 both of us afterwards
Sealhugger72 [3:29 P.M.]: ok?
gdayflavored24 [3:30 P.M.]: yeah, that wuz u being a bithc
Sealhugger72 [3:30 P.M.]: that was my hint that i wasnt interested nemore
gdayflavored24 [3:31 P.M.]: im bad at that
Sealhugger72 [3:31 P.M.]: confession: the only reason i went out with you for 2 months after the dance was because i wanted akiss, ok?
gdayflavored24 [3:31 P.M.]: u suk

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Sealhugger72 [3:32 P.M.]: I WISH PEOPLE WOULD STOP TRYING TO MAKE E FEEL SO INFERIOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
gdayflavored24 [3:32 P.M.]: wtf
Sealhugger72 [3:32 P.M.]: EVERYBODY DOES THIS TO ME---NO MAGGIE, YOU'RE WRONG, IT WAS THIS WAY, ETC, ETC, ETC!
gdayflavored24 [3:33 P.M.]: w/e
Sealhugger72 [3:33 P.M.]: THIS WORLD IS FULL OF ASSHOLES!!!

RENT

525,600 minutes, 525,000 moments so dear.
525,600 minutes - how do you measure, measure a year?
In daylights, in sunsets, in midnights, in cups of coffee.
In inches, in miles, in laughter, in strife.
In 525,600 minutes - how do you measure a year in the life?
How about love?
How about love?
How about love?
Measure in love.
Seasons of love.

525,600 minutes! 525,000 journeys to plan.
525,600 minutes - how can you measure the life of a woman or man?

In truths that shelearned,

Or in times that he cried.

In bridges he burned,

Or the way that she died....

It's time now to sing out,the story never ends
let's celebrate remember a year in the life of friends.
How about love!
How about love! How about love!
Measure in love.
Seasons of love! Seasons of love.

-----I love this song. I watched RENT(the movie version) for the first time yesterday, and I'm totally obsessed. It was so sad.....
But yay! My mom said that she could work it out this summer so that I could do RENT if I made it. :)

♥, Maggie

I Feel Grr

One word to dscribe my mood- grr. My birthday was just okay. The first part of the day totally sucked, but afterschool was pretty cool.

So yesterday(my birthday) I woke up, noticing that I was "unhappy." Great birthday present, huh? I was over-tired and pretty irritable. When I get downstairs to pack my lunch, my dad has to badger me about the fact that it's cold out so I need something besides my little black dress. So I put on a hideous pair of nylons so he'd leave me alone. I walked through the cold to the bus stop, sneezing nonstop(darn cold/allergies). The bus was really late because we had a substitute, so we were late to school. On my way to my locker I saw Mrs. Allman walking down the hall(apparently she had 2 go to some stupid meeting) so we ended up having a retarded sub in English. So my favorite teacher was absent on my birthday. Grr. We had gigantic tests in science and geometry... but at least I think I did well. And Patrick is going out with Robyn and I'm pretty pissed about it for some reason. (No need to keep it a secret...everyone knows). I mean, I told Patrick that there is such a thing called GIRL CODE which clearly states that thou shalt not go out with thy friend's ex-boyfriend. I don't have feelings for Patrick of course, but I know it's going to cause a lot of tension. ("hey, patrick gave me three roses!" "three? he only gave me two on our first date!") I feel bad because Robyn's just so sweet and neither of them really are ever asked out. But still, I'm being a selfish female dog.
So I get home and I get presents fro my parents (a purse and a tote). When I get to dance there are all these cupcakes on a plate in the lobby that say "Happy Birthday Maggie!" I was totally not expecting that so it totally made my day. :)

♥, Maggie

Stalker

Teehee. I should be a professional stalker. I was fooling around on Facebook when I figured out Mrs. Allman's husband's name. Only I don't feel like telling anybody because I'm just evil like that. Ok so obviously I'm in a much better mood.

I should probably go do homework now. Bleh.

Falling Deeper

I'm falling deeper into a pit that I've created for myself.

We presented our scenes from the Crucible in english class yesterday. I remembered all my lines and had them on cue and everything, and had a lot of emotion. Jamese pulled everything together really well, and did a really good job. Aaron, on the other hand, got stage fright and forgot most of his lines. I was doing a really serious scene with him, and it's kinda hard to do a good scene when you have to whisper his lines to him, and when he doesn't hear you, Mrs. Allman has to give him his lines from the audience. So it totally sucked and Mrs. Allman accidentally made us end early and I'm like, "Oh we have a couple more lines to stumble through!" Ok so I didn't say that..... But then she asked Jamese what the symbolism was in our first formation so Jamese rambles off on some tangent because she was in ISS the day that we decided the symbolism. So I step in and give the explanation. Mrs. Allman looked a little upset and proceded to explain to us that we wouldn't get full credit because not everybody in our group knew the symbolism. So in an attempt to save my butt, I explained the whole "Jamese wasn't there" dilemma. I'm not sure how it will work when it comes to points.

But I'm really really really upset about all of this. I want to go talk to Mrs. Allman about it just to get rid of all my pent-up energy over this matter. But I don't want to be weak and cry or sound whiny or like a perfectionist, etc. But Maggie, Olivia, and my dad all think that talking to Mrs. Allman about it is a good idea.

Why am I doing this to myself? English class is my favorite class, and Mrs. Allman is one of the best teachers that I've ever had.... so why am I ruining myself through english class? First the kiss, then the crying, now the crappy performance - is it the things that we love doing the most that tear us down? I've seen myself ruin myself for dance. I've seen people ruin themselves with an obsession for war or drugs or alcohol.

Why are constantly falling deeper into the holes that we've created for ourselves???

English Class is Ruining My Life

English class is ruining my life.

Grr.

Yesterday my English teacher closes the door after everybody's inside, and walks up to the front of the room.
"Warren," Mrs. Allman says, "I was told that you were caught cheating on the quiz yesterday."
Warren looks absolutely shocked.
"And Maggie," she continues, "I was told that you knew Warren cheated and chose not to tell me." At this point I'm like WTF lady - I didn't do any of it. I had no idea who told her this, but I had no idea that Warren cheated. And at our school, if you're accused of anything bad even if you're innocent, you get ISS. So I knew that I was toast. But how did I lose her trust?? I thought that she liked me. Was it the kiss wuth Taylor that made her hate me?
"And I need the two people who were sitting next to Warren to go to Dr. Kornegay's office, too." she continues, her face as serious as stone. At this point I get up and stand by the door, ready to snatch the hall pass out of her hands, run down to the office, and plead my innocence. Tears are spilling over my eyes and I'm shaking all over, a hurricane of emotions raging inside me. Mrs. Allman is about to open the door when-
"Warren, you can go sit down." she says. WTF??? "This isn't for real." It takes a moment to sink in. Whe it does, I shake in fury, relieved and shocked. My hands fly to my mouth, and all I can do is gape.
Mrs. Allman notices my tear-streaked face. "Oh, Maggie, I'm so sorry that I upset you like that!" she cries, wrapping my frozen shoulders in a hug.
She proceeds to explain that how the class felt may have been how the accused and bystanders felt in the Crucible. Then we talked about our feelings...
So it was funny afterwards, until Mrs. Allman told the other classes that she felt bad for making me cry. So now everybody's making fun of me....

♥,
Maggie

The Crucible, Fish, etc.

Ok, so we're reading the Crucible in school and it's pretty cool. That is, unless you accidentally lose your lip virginity during one of the scenes... But anyways, our English teacher is making us memorize scenes to present to the class in groups on Friday. After much confusion and people-switching, I ended up in a group with Jamese and Aaron. We're doing the scene where Mary Warren comes home from court and reports what happened, plus the short scene between Elizabeth and Proctor afterwards. Anyways, I have to memorize 31 lines by Friday - for a grade!!!!! YIKES!!!!

Another random rant....
I got a goldfish at the fair this weekend. It kept on making faces at me, like it was yelling at me. In fact, it reminded me a whole lot of my geometry teacher, so I named it Ms. Vasili. This way, I can keep Ms. Vasili in a little fish bowl until she dies, and then I'll flush her down the toilet.

The Election....
I won'tbe 14 until the 24th, so I can't vote in this election. But if I could, I'd vote for McCain. I know I'm a little off for being so young yet so conservative, but who cares? I really don't know what to do about the national debt or healthcare, so I care about the issues that I can take a stand on, like abortion or gay marriage. Why would someone want to kill an innocent little baby, I ask you? What did the child ever do to deserve death? Think about it.

♥,
Maggie